my favorite season is Spring, but after this Winter, Spring is probably everyone's favorite season right now, too. today is the first day of Spring, but more importantly it's free water ice day at Rita's. on that note, we're all craving some heat and the sun's Vitamin D to help us look less like death.
the other day I got to sit down with paper and pen and start date-saving on the calendar for all the upcoming events and occasions in life, things to see and things to have happen, things to create and things to do, making sure that I won't forget them, and anticipating each as they come. with this also came overwhelming brain explosions, because I realized that this time last year it was the exact same amount of crazy scheduling, and this is the busiest time of year leading up to summer's kick off.
not to get all sentimental here, (i can't afford to cry yet) but it's also senior year, and as exciting as that is, it is also hard, terrifying, incomprehensible, and amazing all at the same time. it's an "on the fence" phase between high school and college; one where you balance between the far-aways and here-to-stays, the sudden nostalgia, the unfathomable questions of time and how it runs so fast, the questioning of your identity because you don't know how to feel about change and growing up and not knowing where to go or what to do.
as much as this "fear of the unknown" creeps in, life has a way of reminding me that I have no control of the unknown. So why continue to try and predict it and figure it out when there's no way of knowing?
Finding joy in the journey. The "journey" of it all includes this fear of the unknown that honestly cannot be avoided or hidden away. It continually comes whether we like it or not. But God still owns tomorrow. And resting in His promises of green in this coming Spring season, resting in His promise that He'll hold, that He never leaves or changes, that He always stays...that is the Joy coming in these next few months that ultimately leaves me with a content heart through the anticipation of change. This graduating season, this transition stage, this looking up to what will come.
Rend Collective has a new album that came out this week, and it epitomizes this year's spring season. Track number one is called "Joy". The first words on the album are "we're choosing celebration". choosing! Choosing each day to celebrate in Jesus' love.
"In the shadows, in the sorrows, in the desert when the pain hits
You are constant, ever-present, You're the song of my heart."
-Joy by Rend Collective
-cait
-cait
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