It's Okay Not To Be Okay

There's plenty to think about, to complain about, to keep in my head. Things that I wish I could change and things that I wish were better, but aren't. Things that I'm fearing, both rational and ridiculous. Fearing today, fearing tomorrow, fearing next week, next month, the fall season, next summer. It all spirals around, leading into the next thing and doesn't seem to take a break.

But I'm being challenged to talk about the joy I see through the fear. The little things God gives to get me through, and the ways that I can eventually simmer down my fears when they creep up.

I'm at a point of anxiety, but it's okay not to be okay. It's just not okay to stay there. Anxiety cannot overtake willingness to let the Holy Spirit work in our hearts. Otherwise we're clutching and clinging to how much we want control of our lives, and not opening up our hands, giving it to God.

He's got it. He's got it under control. He's already there, and He wants His will for us; to give glory back to Him in the end.

"When I said, 'my foot is slipping,' Your unfailing love, Lord, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, Your consolation brought me joy." ~Psalm 94:18-19

song of the day: "Settler" by Balmorhea

love, cait