It's That Month

I would just like to say that I love Christmas. And I can definitely admit that lights, hot chocolate, gifts, trees, candy canes and Santa are all really desire-able and cool. But I guess I don't want my mind and heart to focus on those things this year. It's really easy to get swooped up in all the commercialized nonsense, but I'd like to be challenged to take this holiday season a step deeper than the previous years. 

I honestly don't remember last fall or winter. I think sometimes when you're hurting a lot you numb out the pain and accidentally block out periods of time and memories that go with it because you don't want to feel. So, with that, Christmas came and went and winter was isolating. 

Not to get all pessimistic here. Sorry.

But with the forgetting of Christmas and the winter in general, I also forgot a lot about the coming of Christ. 

Last year is gone, and this year is here. And because I know that I forgot about Advent last year, this year I'm looking forward to the season of waiting for Jesus to come. 

The One that saves the world! How much more excited could you be, right? ...However, Advent, that comes around every year along with Santa and the blow-up decorations on front lawns, can also become mundane. 

We've heard it all before, we know it's coming. 

I was trying to make a point for myself and then I forgot what I was thinking....I don't remember.

I guess this holiday season I'm praying to wait expectantly with open hands for Jesus to come. It's an incredible story, and, I dunno, I just want to hear it again this year like it's the first time that I've ever heard it. 

I want to stand in awe before God. 

love, caitlyn